匿名 : How do you like living in NYC? I might be moving there with my partner and I'm worried we will have to live in a closet. Please tell me if this is true and if so, are there at least charming closets? <3
i hate it and love it, its dirty and expensive and smells bad and nothing ever works right and makes me want to bash my head in to the wall but at the same time its so convenient. youd probably be better off trying to find a place in brooklyn or queens, give up on manhattan unless you want to live in a really awful place for way too much imo
匿名 : how are you so lucky to find so many friends with the same interests as you?? i can barely find anyone who likes the same music as me ;_;
i have no idea????? people like yujin i just kind of started talking to on here years ago, i met one of my best friends maria while cosplaying dir en grey years and years ago, michelle back at otakon 2012 and marisa shortly after, and then von has been my friend since otakon 7 years ago, just..if i look back at it, here and there…i dont know how i was lucky enough to make such good friends either
sometimes i wish i had more time to maintain friendships and talk to people and express a lot of the gratitude i feel for people just being there, and i feel especially bad when i receive kind or supportive messages that i just dont respond to. when it comes down to it i realize im just completely overwhelmed with school and life and while i get by through finding happiness in the things i like, anime, music, cosplay, etc, but even then its such short amounts of time i budget off for that, i rarely sleep as a result and my stress is so bad i cant function or deal with any kinds of emotion properly. if i think about it when it comes to direct communication i try to be as open as i can in person, even though i get shy and paranoid easily. in the end, its just very hard for me to stay in contact or keep up with with anyone i dont regularly see in person. i just want to extend that fact to everyone on here and i hope u dont think too badly of me for it.
on the most basic level, i wish school wasnt making me such a disgustingly angry and bitter recluse